Vacation?

I've had the last several days off from work. I mean, work being the job that I get paid for. Lately for me, I have chosen to be overly busy when I take vacation. These few days have included finish paint work, massive cleaning of the house, paying bills, doctors appointments, and still managing to go to work to finish up some things like networking that are easier to do when I am not officially working. It is with this process of reflection that I suddenly realized why I feel the way I do.

Though Jon Kabut Zinn has taught me the true benefit of being mindful, I still (often) get caught in being too busy to do just that. That is when I revisit my recent moments in life to reconnect with the present. And, as is typical the case, I then set a new intention, often refocusing my purposeful life in a direction of evolvement. Forgive me, as I am currently "midcycle" in the midst of that flurry of hormonal changes that often takes me down this path of exploration.

And now as I ponder over these same days, I see how amongst the "busyness" I could still give as well as receive...because it sometimes is true that the more I receive, the more I wish to give. Time with my kids listening to Jordan talk about hunting, hearing Andrew laugh anything that sounds remotely like the sound of gas. Quiet time with my husband. A bowling afternoon with friends that benefited Juvenile Diabetes Association, and other moments with friends around a campfire and another playing Blokus and Quandry.

I have one day left of this "vacation". As the sun starts shining through my window I can see a world of creativity painted with color. It is with great intention today that I will be present with God and all of the glory that surrounds Him. I must cut this short as the voices of my family can be heard upstairs calling to me exactly where I would like to be today...with them.